Hunter VS Hunted

Made a divination deck.Did my own reading 10 card Cicero spread….21st DEC 2009

CARD1 is always a PRESENT INFULENCE.

I got : L’Imperatrice (empress) meaning- action,development,Fruitfulness,Fertility,Progress

CARD2 is your IMMEDIATE OBSTACLES.

I got : Junon (High Priestest) meaning- wisdom,serenity,serene knowledge,judgement,learning,common sense,understanding, sagacity.

CARD3 is a SPECIFIC GOAL.

I got: Le Bateleur (Juggler/Magician) meaning -Confidence,Skill,initiative,Creative,Craft,Originality.

CARD4 reflects on past and present events taking place.

I got: Le Diable (the devil) meaning- Violence,Revenge,Fatality,Disaster,Fate,Bondage

CARD5 is your PAST/Past foundation.

I got: Temperance meaning- Patience,Accomodation,Moderaton,Reflection,Friendship,Compatibility,Frugality,Temperance.

CARD6 is a Future Coming Element in your life.

I got: La Muert(Death) meaning-Death,Sudden change,End,Destruction,Loss,Failure.

CARD7 shows PRESENT ATTITUDE OR SURROUNDING  CIRCUMSTANCE.

I got: Le Pendu (the hanged man) meaning- Transition,Abandonment,Surrender,Sacrifice,Renunication.

CARD8 ENVIROMENTAL FACTORS.this card shows influences on other people in your life and reveals tendencies.

I got: La Force (Strength) meaning- Courage,Fortitude,Energy,Resolutions,Defiance,Determination.

CARD9 is your INNER EMOTIONS and shows both your hopes and fears.

I got: La Roue De Fortune (wheel of Fortune) meaning- Destiny,luck,future,fate,godsend,inevitability, necessity,probability.

CARD10 is the FINAL RESULTS/OUTCOMES and shows the connection between all prior cards.

I got: L’Ermite (the hermit) meaning- withdrawl,Caution,Prudence,Solicitude,Circumspection.

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You are probably like why is this girl posting her readings … my reason is because they are all true and have had a massive affect on my life. i only recently found my  old diary i wrote it down in and everything has happened in order.

Since a very important friend of mine killed herself my life has been a massive downward spiral. I can’t seem to get a job, be in healthy stable relationships, or find my confidence again.  I have had a lot happen from after effects of heartache and broken trusts and damaged friendships and i am slowly most definitely falling away from the world and feeling like very much a black sheep and am not accepted anywhere and i have been gradually slipping into distancing myself from any normal social functionality cos i have lost faith in both myself and people. i am trying to turn things around to have a future but i’m terrified i may be too late.